on the go

i just got back from seeing the doctor (my follow-up appointment from my tortocollis surgery). i was unaware that i even had an appointment this morning until 8 am, when my phone rang and the medical transportation company guy was here to bring me to my appointment. all that the doctor did at the appointment was look at my neck and ask me if i had any problems with the surgery. he told me that my neck looked like it was healing good but if i wanted, he could give me some cream to put on the scar. i never got around to getting the cream, i forgot. afterwards, i went straight back to my apartment and i'm going to eat lunch and then i'll head out for class at 1. i tried telling the nurse about the pain that i get right below my left rib at different times and she told me to consult my primary care physician and the doctor that i was seeing today didn't specialize in those types of problems. i did tell my primary care physician and all that she had me do is breathe in a few times while she felt under my rib cage and she prescribed me some shit. i already have a busy schedule and to try to fit in an appointment with that stupid doctor wouldn't make things better, especially if the problem is probably just going to come back again like it has now. i don't know if she knew what she was doing when she prescribed be that shit, she probably just prescribed it to me to get me out of her office.. dumbass.
i stayed up reading some shit (that i knew that i probably wouldn't remember) last night until 11 pm in bed laying with my laptop in bed with me. i still haven't read it all but i think that even if i did read it all, i probably wouldn't remember what i read partially because of the fact that it was late and i was tired AND my good old short term memory. i'll probably just end up sitting in class today, staring at the board, as the professor speaks about some shit that i forgot or that i didn't even bother reading. i'll probably fail this class. ah well. i can't get too comfortable with the idea of failure though.. that won't get me anywhere in life. just gotta keep truckin.